Monday, April 27, 2015

Gutlessness Never Helped Anyone Avoid Embarrassment

There exist people who are unable and unwilling to process intense negative emotions. Emotions like contempt, disgust, loathing, and murderous. Since they can't process feeling murderous, their answer to the question of what kinds of people they would kill and for what reasons, is nobody, at any time and for any reason, under any circumstance whatsoever. And for this reason, many of them feel virtuous.

Of course, the consequence of being unable to process disgust is that they cannot stay away from people who disgust them, people who are bad for them. That's a mental catastrophe waiting to happen because they'll let themselves get close to parasites and leechers who will drain them dry financially and emotionally. So effectively, gutless people are passively suicidal since disgust is necessary to mental stability just as much as pain is necessary to physical well-being.

Pain doesn't tell you when your body is being damaged and about to die, nor does it teach any such thing. By that point in time, the point where a lion has his claws in you, it's far too late to do anything about it. No, pain teaches you when YOU are hurting your own body. By pinching yourself too hard, by nicking yourself with a knife, by sleeping on one side constantly. Those things cause pain because if you do them on a long-term basis you will kill yourself.

So too disgust teaches you not to avoid mental torture at the hands of others, but rather to avoid hurting yourself emotionally, mentally, and psychologically. By staying away from people and jobs and companies and situations which you are disgusted by. It isn't the narcissist that is hurting you and taking advantage of you, it is yourself that is hurting you by staying in a relationship with the narcissist. You can blame gutlessness for such pathetic victim stories.

But let's set aside the fact that gutlessness is contrary to mental self-preservation and is passively suicidal. Or that the unwillingness to act negatively in negative circumstances is pathetic as fuck to witness. We will focus on something infinitely more prosaic and ordinary and yet infinitely more important precisely for its ordinariness. The avoidance of embarrassment by making mistakes.

After all, let's say you kill a psychopathic serial killer like the Joker but it turns out they killed only in self-defense and aren't psychopathic and they're not even the Joker but a tied up hostage wearing a mask the Joker put on them. Killing is a bit extreme, final, and irreversible so what if you make a mistake? Wouldn't you feel dumb? Or ashamed or guilty or something else? Isn't the consequence of making a terrible mistake inevitably some kind of intense negative emotion? Shouldn't intense negative emotions be avoided entirely in order to reduce the chances of mistakes?

But mistakes happen in a probabilistic complex universe. You're afraid of them? They're fucking inevitable! And if you believe that feeling certain of yourself and then later on your course of action turning out to be completely wrong makes you feel dumb, that's because you're not looking at it correctly. Because inaction brings no surety. false uncertainty brings no safety. It's impossible for a 2 liter brain to thoroughly think through a 10^89 liter physical universe.

After all, do you feel dumb if the laws of physics change under you? Would you feel dumb if someone appeared and said, and proved, that the universe is a game simulation in a 100 dimensional universe run by aliens? It's not about factoring in what you know versus what you don't know, it's about the fact everything is a probability distribution and there's no reason to factor in things with infinitesimal probability.

So you make a mistake, so what? You move on and deal with it. your mistakes are just obstacles like in parkour, things to run over. There's a world of difference between being dumb and making a mistake. mistakes you learn from. being dumb you generally don't. and gutless people are being very dumb in how they approach facts and embarrassment.

You don't feel bad for not accounting for an infinitesimal probability.
You don't feel bad for not having the time to account for a small probability.
You SHOULD feel dumb if you act all shy and awkward and uncertain that you can't own up to your major-probability approximation after one hour's calculation.
You SHOULD feel dumb if you never voice what you know to be true because you're worried about the 1% or 0.1% or 1 in a million probability of being wrong

You make mistakes. It happens. It's an inevitable fact of living in a probabilistic universe. An inevitable fact of being a finite being in a much, MUCH bigger universe than itself. The universe is fucking 10^53 kilos when your brain is 1 kilo. So you should feel very, very dumb for ever expecting your 1 kg brain to grasp the entire 10^53 kg universe before it decides on courses of action. This is not a functional way to approach reality.

Let's say you kill 1000 people for being psychopaths, and 10 of them turn out to be innocents and 1 of them turns out to be an anti-psychopath. How many people would those 989 psychopaths have murdered if you hadn't killed them? I call this a win. It doesn't mean you don't IMPROVE your detection mechanisms if you're bothered they're so poor, but it doesn't mean you lose any sleep over it either.

Doing nothing doesn't mean the universe is on hold or on pause around you. The universe keeps going and people keep dying while it keeps going, and psychopaths keep killing while you worry about who's a psychopath and who isn't. While you worry about not killing innocent people, innocent people are dying due to your inactions. Because inaction is a type of action after all, just a despicable kind of action that denies all agency and personhood. A type of action that revels in humans' atavistic nature and makes them no better than animals.

That said, doing nothing is fairly acceptable if you judge the universe to be wholly and entirely positive. After all, what needs to be changed in that circumstance? Just enjoy it while it lasts. But then, people don't resort to violence unless they judge things to be negative, and usually very negative. It's not true that people are gutless because they're scared of being wrong or scared of violence. It's the reverse. Gutlessness causes fear of being wrong and fear of violence.

When you're capable of processing intense negative emotions, intensely negative things like mistakes and errors in judgement and innocent people dying are just a fact of life. (And here the Gaian says Aha, shrugs their shoulders and is happy that people die, because it's a "fact of life" and life is sacred to them. Okay, screw this.) So as I said, they're facts of the universe and facts of reality. And your job is to optimize or maximin or equalize the negatives, not to avoid them entirely. You can avoid the negatives once you possess full control over the physical universe, and not one second earlier.

Yet another salient point is that when bad things happen, or even when you cause bad things to happen, the emotional response is NOT generally speaking embarrassment or shame or stupefaction or things like that. There are a LOT more negative emotions than that! There's rage, frustration, anger, determination, grimness, resignation, depression ... and those things are a lot closer to victory than happiness is. You know what negativity tastes like? It tastes like potential victory. I enjoy victory.

So think about this. You want to avoid embarrassment? You're not going to succeed by avoiding negative emotions, a field which is much MUCH vaster than embarrassment. But I can guarantee you WILL succeed, eventually, if you dive into that field and your emotional profile will change, maybe even to including murderous. Transforming your mind and your actions until you feel only the emotions you want is a long and involved and exacting process, but there is no substitute. Dumb and mindless avoidance of all negative emotions merely ensures you remain a pathetic wretch who never gets what he wants in life.

I wanted to be able to dish out violence online and make enemies while never feeling humiliation caused by anyone else's or my own actions, and I succeeded totally. So I do believe your own much more pathetic emotional goals are entirely achievable so long as you know the math behind it and follow it scrupulously.

Friday, April 24, 2015

Who Needs Brain Bleach and Dreads Puppy Dog Eyes?

There is a particular type of person who keeps saying "OMG, TMI, I need brain bleach" at something innocuous like seeing old people fucking, or their parents fucking. Or even more innocuous, seeing their siblings fucking. Why the fuck would they do that? It's not like they have to do anything about it.

But the thing is, these people want to do absolutely nothing, not even think, so the mere learning of highly unexpected information is deeply traumatic because it requires them to think, to learn and to assimilate that information. And thinking, learning and assimilating are doing things, thus are highly negative to them.

Basically, these people are saying the equivalent of "OMG, I have to lift a finger! I don't know how to lift my finger! Freakout freakout freakout!" Which is utterly pathetic, and yes they are that utterly pathetic because their minds are fragmented and autistic. That's why thinking and learning are onerous chores to them which they will do the least possible.

These people still want to move to prove they exist, they just don't want to go anywhere so they twirl in circles going nowhere. They want to sleep because they don't want to die, and at least being asleep proves they exist. Dreaming proves they exist. They want to be, but not to do. They want to be Smaug the sleeping dragon sitting on his hoard, feared and left alone. And doing nothing.

Every time they have to move their paw to scratch themselves in a place they've never scratched themselves before, they have to remember how to scratch oneself and cobble this together with the new spot that is scratchy and see if that works. This is effort, but not half as much effort as having to learn something out of nothing, like learning to use a backscratcher when you've never scratched yourself before. OMG the trauma!

Why do these people dread "the puppy dog eyes" or "the stare"? And I don't quote dread because yes they do dread it. Well, it should be obvious by now, they want to do absolutely nothing, and someone personally connected to them asking them to do something forces them to do something ... which is not nothing and hence is to be feared and dreaded. "Oh no, I have to lift my finger, the horror, the horror!!!"

Other things they say are "I could eat". As opposed to "I want to eat" which requires having desires and so takes effort. As opposed to "I am hungry" which requires determining the actual state of their body, which takes effort. Yes, minimal effort, the kind of effort which virtually everyone scoffs at and says "that's no effort at all" and laughs in derision. But that's still effort to people who want to do ABSOLUTELY NO EFFORT.

Speaking of that, speaking in a thunderous voice, or getting angry, or caring, or even raising your voice, that all takes effort. Which is why these people are always soft-spoken, because that requires no effort. Which is why they always get along, because that requires no effort. Which is why they're always polite, because that's expected of them and takes no effort. In a lot of ways, these people are my antithesis, which is why I loathe them.

Another thing they say is "I see how it is" when they feel put upon. Why? Because that's the minimum possible reaction to an insult. Why, it's virtually no reaction at all. It's a mere placeholder for a reaction. It says "I should feel insulted but I won't go to the bother of it because then I'd have to do something about it". Except "I see how it is" is 5 syllables instead of 27. The only possible way to expend LESS effort would be to ignore insults entirely and be completely imperturbable. Which some of them actually do.

These people's minds are autistic and fragmented, with jagged bits and pieces grinding against each other painfully. That's why they don't like to think. It's also why they're all shy and awkward about virtually anything. It's also why they worship grace (least effort under adverse circumstances) because they consider virtually everything an adverse circumstance.

And it's also why they worship ecosystems since ecosystems are made up of animals that constantly grind against each other, whether to fuck or to kill. Ecosystems resemble their minds and Man always did create God in His own image. That's why these retards talk about loathsome "ecosystems of ideas". And it's also why they worship evolution which is just going along with random meaningless arbitrary forces their autistic minds can't hope to ever understand.

And it's also why they keep saying exterminating mosquitoes "will have repercussions we cannot hope to understand". Because they are autistic retards so of course they can't understand anything, and frankly don't want to ... because that requires effort. But you know what? Exterminating mosquitoes requires effort too, which is the actual reason they don't want to do it. And of course, they are terrified that those "repercussions we cannot hope to understand" might require effort.

To them, everything should remain exactly as it is. And if you're hurt by it, you should be soothed, because that's the minimum amount of effort. Slavery, war, disease, murder, infanticide, poverty, death, none of it matters and none of it could possibly matter enough to ... expend effort. Just ... compensate. Everything is in a beautiful "balance" which should remain exactly how it is indefinitely. Balance, the point of least effort to everything else.

And when that "beautiful balance" gets upset then it requires ... token effort to redress it. The people waving around placards and street signs saying "white people like me don't get shot by the cops" are basically whining "stop making me feel guilty for my white privilege". You'll notice that not one single word on the placard signs refers to the people supposedly being protested over, only to the protestors. But that's alright, waving that placard around got rid of their guilt so problem solved! Black people still getting shot? That's no longer their problem, they expended the effort to get rid of the guilt after all.

It's good to be privileged. Even after people make you feel guilty over it, you only need to put in token effort to fix it. On balance, it's a win-win-win. You win, your friends win and your buddies win. Corruption? Nah, *friends*. Because strangers don't matter and what kind of asshole would make you go to the ludicrously insane amounts of effort that caring for strangers would require? The notion of caring for strangers you don't personally see, talk to, or interact with in any way isn't even comprehensible to them.

To them, it's never "everyone should be free" or "everyone should be treated well". It's always "me and my buddies should be free and treated well". That word "corruption" is only bad because others think it's bad, and might ... require effort to deal with them.

It's always easiest (least effort) to deal with others when nobody knows what you're doing in the dark. So smile smile smile at everyone during the daytime and hide what others would disapprove of at night. Because it's only considerate to others to not tell them the things that would make them *go to the effort* of becoming upset, and would in turn make you *go to the effort* of dealing with their emotional reactions.

Also, everyone has the same basic drives (ie, wanting everything to be effortless) that they themselves do, because processing how alien minds work would require effort. In fact, just the notion that others' minds are alien to you requires effort to assimilate, so is basically anathema to them. And if for some reason they need to recognize the existence of other personality types, they will only recognize the minimal number of them for their particular goals. Naturally enough since that is least effort.

Ah yes, another giveaway word they use is "monsters". Not psychopath or narcissist or nazi, but "monster". What is a monster? "Someone or something whose body or mind I don't recognize and can't process with my autistic mind or otherwise makes my life difficult." An unexpected freak.

Thursday, April 23, 2015

The Paradox of Getting Along

Some people are confused about why it's wrong to lie. "Does this dress make me look fat?" White lies, polite lies. What's wrong with sparing people's feelings? What's wrong with getting along? What's wrong with being nice and kind?

Well, the problem with it is that if you ever lie, and especially if you ever lie casually then you become known as a liar and fundamentally dishonest, and at that point people will never trust you. And there's just no point getting along with people who are untrustworthy so nobody will bother getting along with you.

This is the paradox of getting along. If you try your hardest to get along with others, nobody will ever get along with you and you will fail in your endeavor. You will fail abysmally, wholly, and completely. If you care only about making friends with others, you will never have friends. And if you're lucky, people will snicker to your face rather than wasting your time.

Now, there is a good explanation for this paradox and it's this. People who care only about having friends or getting along or survival or whatever, they basically don't care about anything. Yes, they care about having friends, but others care about having friends PLUS they care about their projects, their goals, their dreams and their principles.

Nearly everyone cares about something more than getting along, and is perfectly willing to sacrifice getting along for what they care for. So how are they going to perceive someone who cares ONLY about getting along? Those people are going to fall into the Uncanny Valley and will subconsciously register as hollow, fake, and un-people.

Real people care about things and people who care only about getting along aren't real people. You can never trust someone who seeks only to get along with others because you can never predict what they will do. They are in fact a mere object thrown about by the whims of others, not an independent entity possessed of free will, not a person.

It's difficult for most people to understand others who are fundamentally unlike themselves. And what isn't understood can never be trusted, unless your entire personality revolves around faith and even then, faith is given to some people in preference to others. People who care about faith above all else will never place their faith in people who care about nothing.

And caring, genuine caring, can never be faked using hobbies or pastimes. Accumulating a steady succession of hobbies only shows to others that you just don't care about any of them. There's no way for people who care only about getting along to fake genuine caring or to fake out others about the fact that they don't care.

In a world of people who care about goals and dreams, those who care only about getting along and fitting in with others will never fit in and never get along. Why else is there an obsession with being "cool"? With literally not giving a fuck what others think? It's a reaction against "friendlies". Even if the "friendlies" have tried to corrupt "cool" to mean "popular".

If you care only about getting along with others, that is all you will ever have in life. You will never have comrades, you will never have brothers, you won't even ever have friends. And you might not even succeed in "getting along", that is, avoiding conflict at any cost.

Saturday, April 18, 2015

You Are What You Eat

Eat fat, be fat, right?

Eat meat exclusively and you're a mighty predator RAWR like the lion who claims all four parts of the kill. One part because he's king, one part because he's noble, one part because he's a team-member, and the last part he'll kill anyone who touches it.

Drink milk and be a cow, led hither and yon to pasture. It doesn't even taste good, it's not all that healthy with the growth hormones in it, so why are you doing it? I suppose it's the regression to infancy most desired by right-wing authoritarians.

Be a vegetarian and you're a plant. That just sits there and does nothing, merely "being" and "aware" of its environment. "Environmentally-aware", get it? Fucking plants, no wonder they feel so much sympathy for trees. Ought to take a chainsaw to them.

Eat honey and you're a worker bee, busily buzzing around for the benefit of the worker hive. All for the collective! Save the pupae!!

Eat fish and you're ... a bigger fish. Swimming in the currents of the great material continuum together with your school of identical other fishies while clinging to the belief that you're a precious unique individual. Ironically and ambivalently since there's no sense of direction out in the ocean.

Be an omnivore and ... you know, I don't know what the fuck you are but you might be like me. Maybe you're a monkey, clever little monkey, hihihi. Laughing at all the other stupid animals while chucking the "bend with the wind" trees into the fire. The trees that whine because they "never did anyone any harm".

Pacifism has saved: 0 people from slavery and/or a bullet to the head.

Thursday, April 16, 2015

What personality does the Sun have?

Let's set aside the fact the Sun is a runaway thermonuclear fusion reactor outputting a lot of X-rays in the sky and that worshipping it in preference to building nuclear power plants is fucking insane, and extremely annoying besides. And while we're at it, let's set aside the fact it's a ball of hydrogen above a critical mass for self-ignition. Got it? Now, what IS the Sun? And, since I already gave it away: what personality does it have?

The Sun is the object that pleases everyone equally without exception. It can be harsh and unforgiving out in the wastes around the Nile but you would much, much rather it be there than not. So the Sun is a people-pleaser. As are people with a ... sunny disposition, by no coincidence whatsoever. Going further, what is the Moon? The Moon is the object that takes care of you in your literally darkest hour. Without it, you're fucked.

The ancients didn't say someone was the Sun King or the Lord of Light as a metaphor or symbol for their personality. They said it because the Sun and Moon HAVE personality. And you don't need to anthropomorphize them one little bit to recognize this fact anymore than you need to be a mystic or occultist in order to recognize the GOP Republicans are vampires out to suck you dry of blood. Or that environmentalists are archaicists who hate all humanity.

Calling something a metaphor makes it sound ambiguous and impenetrable, and definitely intended to obscure meaning in order to sound "deep". These things were neither, they were explicit, blatant, overt and most importantly, PRECISE. When you're out working on the Nile every day in the fields, the meaning of Sun is as clear as day. Just as clear as any other in-joke or pop cultural reference. In fact, pop culture references are infinitely MORE obscure than the big glowing object in the sky!

The Sun, the Lord of Light, the original pop culture icon. Far far bigger than the Beatles, let alone Jesus. And still actively worshiped by legions of solar zealots putting out their feeble little solar panels and going out to beaches at enormous cost to themselves.

"You sound like you think they really are gods."

"They are gods."

"No, they're not. They use technology to trick people into thinking they are, but we can show you those tricks. They are not gods. And if you think they're gods, why are you helping us defeat them?"

"The fact that they're gods does not make them good guys. I don't have a problem with fighting gods. And it doesn't matter what technology they use. We're not talking about the omniscient, omnipotent singular god of judeo-christian beliefs, we're talking about ancient pantheonic gods. They can use whatever tricks they want, the facts remain that they have power of life and death over their followers, their followers do worship them, and their temples are holy ground. They are gods. I know that and Teal'c knows that."

"He calls the goa'uld 'false gods.' He knows that they're not really gods."

"They break faith with their people. They play their worshipers falsely. That makes them false gods. It does not make them non-gods." - awesome story by MarbleGlove

Tuesday, April 07, 2015

How Dumbo Can Fly

It is a mystery to some people how Dumbo the flying elephant can fly when rabbits clearly cannot. The mystery is resolved instantly by realizing that Dumbo has neither mass nor density. What he has is geometry and volume with ears proportional to his body similar to birds' wings to their bodies.

When human minds develop in infancy (and the way AI minds should be built by idiots) they learn to process geometry and volume, then color, then mass, then sound. So anyone developing speech recognition as an independent function is going about it backwards.

What this means is there's a period of time during which very small children have no concept of mass. Or not a very accurate concept of it at all. And you don't need to examine children to figure this out.

Plato had a very good grasp of geometry, Leonardo had a very good grasp of color, yet mass had to wait for Galileo, and even a thousand years later, people are still pondering "If a tree falls in the forest, does it make a sound?" when the clear and obvious answer is "no". And anyone who says otherwise simply has no conception of what "sound" means.

Philosophers to this day still have no idea where color comes from. Because philosophers are idiots. They're obviously mind states. But in order to have states first you must have entities to hold those states. And that's what geometry and volume gives you. And mass? Hell, physicists don't know what mass is, because it's even more advanced.